Because i am so not over it

This is because.. too much thing has been happening and going around lately. Not the way that i would want to kick start my holiday with , but i guess i still need to bare with it. I am grateful that i dont have to this all alone, i feel so much better to open up because , truly and honestly i have been hiding and keeping this sorrow deep down in me for months and months. Physically, i may be just fine and happy , but mentally its killing me.